many things r botherin me. im missin my friends. not meetin dhg durin e recess wk feels real weird. at least we get to see each other at julian bday. :)
ucb has yet to send me my welcome package so its leavin me super unsettled. sam is checkin her mail everyday while ppl like me hu r used to checkin everyday turn to checkin it once i switch on e com. my paranoid genes r at work again, suspecting an economic downturn may hav caused e sch to reach some financial difficulty. i hope my fears arent real n i get to live my dreams. *fingers crossed*
online lecs r also drivin me crazy. i listen to less than 10 words n my com has to hang for a while before i can listen to e next 10. so i spent 7h listenin to a 2h lec. save me my god.
one thing tat makes me happy is tat i finally went to e airport to see my poor prane. i dunno y e place n e planes hav such a great therepeutic effect on me. i think julian was goin crazy after watchin e 5th plane landing. haha. probably some child fascination of mine. i even took time to sanitise my toilet seat before gettin onto my business cos i was really fascinated by e sanitiser. haha
anw, my presentation went ok. tcher like our idea n analysis n it really made me heave a sigh of relief. for e past 2 wks i kept havin e suspicioun tat we were doin a movie review. i think i hav a phobia after e tcher rejected our idea. haha. at least i can go for masterin com tut w a light heart now.:)
tats all, i shall go sleep n not watse away my nite. sometimes i feel really happy when no one reads my blog. i dunno y. some kind of balance bet privacy n talkin to someone. i noe wat i mean but i doubt u do. haha
- Mood:
crazy
i cant seem to feel the hope n drive i had last sem, prob cos sch has been quite disapointin. the lousy lecture notes did nth to ease the stress after 2h of heavy slang english. n theres this lecturer who does not use e mike n another hu speaks like he had some sweet in his mouth. it doesnt help by readin e notes b4 e lec nor after it. n e recommended texts arent helpful either. im wonderin if i hav other options. i seem to hav exhausted e list of any help i can get.
then maybe is cos of my expectations. sometimes i think i contradict myself. one moment i hope to improve my results, e next i wish i hadnt. cos improvement gav me a form of stress tat i cld do better. or even worse, i mus maintain it.
also, the lack of a routine has left me even more depressed. only on mon do i attend sch in e morn. e rest? depends whether i wan to attend e useless tutorial n end up havin a min of 3h break b4 an essential lesson. it makes things worse when my routine is broken n i attend sch in e afternoon.
lastly, ive been v disturbed by how n wat some ppl think. ive been readin the 7 habits of highly effective teens. it proved to be quite useful n ive since become happier after havin put some of e advice to practice. but by treatin others well will they do likewise to me? i try to think win-win, tat the world is full of opportunities presented equally to everyone. but others don share opportunities n keep them to themselves. this makes me question whether e effort i put in is worth it.
all these may sound abstract, but i think they reflect my current state of mind v well. its full of struggles n a const search for a better tml.. at least there is a constant renewal of days, sth to look forward to n a sign of yet another new beginnin..
To dao huey: pls check down occasionally as im uploading pic in an anti-chronological order (or wateva u call it, u all get wat I mean la, haha)
Went to southern ridges on sat with dhg. Des suggested it. One of those more conducive suggestions of his. :p we met at 5 at harbour front n realized tat jem n wk were overdressed, both with jeans n shoes despite e weather. After buyin some food, we set off to our destination.
The first reaction when I saw e flight of steps was like omg. Des n julian made it up effortlessly while e rest of us were like panting away behind. Wk blamed it on old age while me n li ting blamed on, or rather confessed of lack of exercise. We even joked tat jem was like Edward cos he was glistenin under the sunlight. Haha
Halfway thru those steps, asked someone to take pic for us..
Anw, all tat climbin was worthwhile since the scenery on top of
Glorious sunset.. i cant emphasise how beautiful it looks. my camera portrays a lousy image of it tho..
Can u see those cable cars behind?
couple admiring e sunset
us hiking up n up..
dhg conquered the peak! i love the shades of colour the sunset gave our pics. anw, des suggested we all take a gulp of water n start spraying since e merlion din hav water. but i guess tat was a bad example for the tourists around there la. haha. on second tot tho, e merlion badly needed some washin.. haha. this pic wld hav been perfect if not for des bag at e corner.. grr..
breathtaking view of the sun.. life seem to not suck at much at that moment.. :p
after tat, we descended the peak of mount faber n gt lost for a while bcos there were many diff routes but the signs were either unclear or not present. trees surrounded us n so it was quite dark too. n most importantly, there were many flights of steps down without railings! i wanted to climb down on all 4s but resisted tat tot. dhg keep sayin i v kua zhang la. wait till u all hav phobia of heights. hymph! haha. eventually, after some probing, we finally arrived at the henderson bridge. we decided to stop for a while and hav dinner since the sun has almost set and we were not even halfway thru our journey. haha.
mummy says we chew with our mouths close n thus e glum looks, with e exception of des tho. haha..
mount faber behind us..
more pics.. dao huey loves takin pics! haha..
beautiful hues of the sky. notice the 3 'beams' of lights? anw, is this considered twilight already? haha..
one last photo b4 we left the bridge.. lousy cam, w flash still so dark..
the rest of the journey was mostly among forests. din bother to take pics cos it was too dark n we cant afford to stop lest we reach our destination at midnight. i love outings with dhg cos we can talk rubbish non stop. wk n des keep sayin they shd sell tics to bring ppl on a haunted tour. watch too muuch tv, i reckon. haha. but e trees were really quite scary, cant see anythin inside them except for pitch darkness. so as usual e guys talk bout their army experiences while i was secretly happy tat i din hav army or i'll cry my nite in the trees. haha..
after tat was e forest trail or wateva its called. i dunno hueva invented such a stupid idea. we had to walk down a series of pathways crisscrossin in bet trees. n the most stupid thing of all is tat these bridges are made of metal mesh.. which means i can see through to the bottom of e forest! omg. i nv walk so fast throughout e journey till then lo. it was so scary. one part of my mind was avoiding lookin down while e other cannot help but look down. as julian puts it, i look as if im peekin. haha..
anw, e trial was super long, which evidently upset me, but i was really glad we din go in the morn or i wld faint when i see how high i was. tho it was quite scary, it felt as if we were in the forest with the trees within reach. there were also some colonial buildings tat we saw tat des envious of as he dreamt of himself living there and jogging on the bridges every morn. des, i'll be waiting for u to make it big. don forget to invite me to yr house then ah! haha..
finally we reached the alexandra bridge. it changes colours every now n then n suddenly 'resets' with a blink. haha.. julian n wk were trying to capture every single colour while i jus cant be bothered after such a long day. squatted at the side admiring the photos tat i took. jul took a pic of me but its still with him.
one last gp photo at the bottom of the bridge.. din go hort park cos it was quite late n din hav a proper dinner yet. too dark to see anythin anw..
after tat, jem started this 'game' of raising e bridge n we started playin like young kids. haha..
after tat took bus to the central to hav dinner at yoshinoya cos budget. haha.. wk bought a dozen mini doughnuts to share among us. it was quite nice la. after tat we left our separate ways. this sat maybe go pulau ubin? seems like dhg like to visit 'not so normal' places. after all, how many good friends are willing to visit these places with u? :)
wth. i was on the beach tram n the next thing i did was to yell at him. WHAT DO YOU THINK U R SAYIN? WHEN I BOUGHT IT, IT BLINKS 100% OF THE TIME WHEN I CHARGE IT! 100%! I WON SEND IT TO YOU IF IT WERE LIKE THI
sensing sth wrong, e guy promised he will do sth bout it. today i will call n ask him again. its been more than 1 week n they still cant get that battery indicator light to blink properly. how to charge my batt with the set off? i paid $300 plus for 5 years warranty n this is the type of service i get. if they dare to mention any more percentages to me, i swear ill write sth to The Straits Times. grr..
study companions:
taking a break..
- Mood:
content
me n my work pass. means i get discounts for e cafe inside! haha. but then e price is for tourist de so if don hav pass will die man. after i took these photos, i got hit with a ball at my head. apparently my colleagues hav been observin me n decided to take an aim at me..
one of the many cool stuff tat i get to try.. this thing is so super fast n yr posture mus be gd to be able to control it cos once u hunch a bit it will zoom off.
then every noon we will go visit e chicks cos e uncle will open e dome n take out those chicks tat hav hatched n send them to e zoo. according to him, these will be fed to snakes. so poor thing. those tat jus hatch r so wet n poor thing cos e dry n larger ones will step over them. haha! of course i get to carry them n e uncle even help me take a photo. i think i was torturing them cos they were chirping so loudly wheneva i pick them up. oh ya, n when e uncle knock on eggs tat r about to hatch, u can hear a chirpin sound comin from inside. sometimes u don hear anythin cos according to him they are sleepin. haha, so cute..
this is the water exhibtion jus beside our microbes exhibition. i look like im standing under a waterfall but its actually water vapour. oh ya, sci centre is such a cold place so im wearin my mickey mouse jacket under e ntu wind breaker. brrrr..
me n zi wen in e water exhibition. now i noe y our landyards are luminous green. cos they shine when in e dark! (most of e exhibitions in sci centre are in partial darkness)
my station was e one with microscopes so my main job scope is to explain wat the students are seein. its fun n fulfillin to teach them cos they r easily fascinated by little things. of course, this reignites e passion i used to hav in sci. :)
another fun part of workin in sci centre is e colleages. seems like sci ppl are super fun lovin. not only my colleagues, but also my superiors. all of them r super nice n i've forged surprisingly close friendships in the short period of time tat ive worked there.
me n my colleagues eatin free buffet from e water exhibition openin ceremony. there were no tables so we ate with e microscopes with rotting strawberries n fermented blue cheese.
jing feng, me n zi wen. all of us study in ntu so we can see each other in sch! yay!
after last day of work, everybody turned up for dinner at minds cafe. (except one hu had to go to e temple) i was expectin lousy food cos its a games cafe but i was wrong! my soup, drink, fish n chips n brownie were delicious. i almost exploded cos e portions were quite big. n e price was ok too! $17 for all these plus 2 hours of gamin! next time dao huey shd eat here too! n this place was far more cosy than e dhoby gaut one. all sofas n low tables.
cos there were too many of us to play a proper game. we split up into 2 groups. my group played a funny game like true or dare. jus tat u cant choose which n hav to do wateva u got after rolling a dice.
e other group was more quiet playin blokus.
one of e cards we got was to hold hands wheneva 2 ppl landed on e same spot.
poor habib had to do everythin with his thumb n litlle finger thruout e game. haha! so niang..
habib's dino. he is somewat infatuated to it. makin e dino a member of e game n offerin some of his brownies to it. haha!
dinie got a punishment where he had to wet a paper with his saliva n let it remain stucked to his head for 3 min. gross sia.
mine was to make everyone stand up wheneva somebody stand up. so i was sabotagin them. stood up suddenly then make everyone move back 2 spaces. haha!
zhen an hidin e dino into his pants when habib went to e toilet. habid was disgusted when he came back n swore tat he will send his dino for washin. haha
after everything, we took a few more photos..
habib n zhen an showin us e 'disco disco'. finally man, after so many days of describin to us. haha! but its kind of gross n dirty..
one last photo.. i'll miss u guys.. it was really fun workin with u all. tho we may hav gone our separate ways, i will always rmb these happy 8 days. hope to see u all soon! :)
- Mood:
happy
being a procrastinater, i decided to act blur and put e matter to rest. but whether is good or bad news, my mum's memory has not deteriorated n she asked wat i hav done to e phone. so there i was in front of e com tryin to search for a resolution. I tried draggin my phones version into e phone but it still did not work. dead man, another round of scolding is highly possible e next morn.
so when i was at my wits end, usin all sorts of idiot proof mtds, i suddenly rmb wat my IT saviour always says (in case u dunno, julian has been solvin these prob since we know each other). so according to julian's theory of life, when u hav questions, seek e ans. n e ans always comes from e internet. haha!
n he was right! i chanced upon a forum with ppl hu hav same prob as me, jus tat they r not as idiot as to delete their programs. anw i followed one of their instructions n dl e dic. after draggin into e phone, it still won work. u can imagine how nervous i was. restartin e phone, openin n closin e prog (now u noe how scary my mum is). then i realise i nv read e instructions properly, u still hav to install in yr phone after dl it. idiot me. n it worked! my heart kind of skipped a beat lo. thank god n julian. haha! my IT skills improve so much after meetin him. he still praise me say i clever. clever student sure hav a gd teacher de hor? haha
- Mood: thankful
looking back, i enjoyed the whole process, except of course the test itself. ill nv forget e feelin i had when i first sat in the driver's seat. it feels weird lookin out of e car in tat postion n its perhaps a privilege tat i can get when im of age. at first, i was so terrified whenever i hear e loud broom of e engine when i overstep e accelerator or when e whole car jumps when it stalls becos my clutch is too high. but eventually, i developed a passion in drivin n in cars.
of course, all these wld not have been possible without all e instructors. sadly, my fixed instructor cld no longer teach me while im on revision. but im lucky to meet him while i was still an amateur. i got him on my 2nd lesson n he made me go round n round in e circuit becos he felt my turns were not rite. on my 3rd lesson, i got him again. i can still rmb how irritated i felt when i saw him leanin against my car. with him around, im bound to waste more money as i get stucked in subjects. but slowly i grew to like and appreciate him. despite being a perfectionist n makin me park my car at least 10 times consequetively becos he felt it was not in e centre of e lot, he is a passionate teacher. i parked till i wanted to cry n i my neck hurt cos i was lookin back for at least half h. but e fact tat he looked guilty made me appreciate wat he has done.
he praises when i do well but does not overpressurise when i make mistakes. there was once i drove up an expressway bcos i forgot to turn. he drove me back without scoldin n even asked if i was alright. on another occasion, i nearly met an accident cos i did not double check, he jammed e brakes n told me to be extra careful without even a word of harshness. he is meticulous n observes my every action closely so tat he can point out mistakes. knowin tat i fear e machine, he shared experiences bout his other students n how he relaxes by drivin around.
he is a true gentlemen too, openin n closin my door for me n reachin for my bag at e back after e lesson. once, when i was late, he reversed for me when he saw me runnin towards e car.
today, not only do i thank him for being a significant role in my success of attainin a license, i thank him for bein my role model. i was once guilty of being restless when students ask me questions. now, when i teach students, i think of how he encouraged me n how i felt. a teacher is not only one hu teaches, but also one hu cares for the welfare of the students and feels for their students. Thank you Mr Farid, for showin me all these..
- Mood: grateful
size of my mouth = size of kiwi = big
if size of strawberry = size of my mouth,
size of strawberry = big = expensive
prize of one box = $6 = prize of 2 packets of mee pok = entitlement to public toilets for 30 times assumin each time costs 20 cents
mum bought me a new thumbdrive. bigger in storage, smaller in size, less in hazzle n nicer in colour (bru) :) happy..
- Mood: crazy
yesterday went to eat dinner with dao huey at e glass house. im quite lazy to type n am v sian cos sch reopenin tml so ill jus let the pics do e talkin.. haha..
e nice decor and romantic ambience.. we were at the second floor. struggled bet first and 2nd floor cos there was a performance at e 1st floor but 2nd floor look nicer.in e end e waitress led us to 2nd floor. matter solved.. haha!
below are more candid photos i took cos i was too bored. e food took so long to come then they screw up by sendin everyone their food except mine. sobs.. nearly wanna poke them with my fork.. haha!
wk helpin des n evelyn take photos. heh, i hav talent for photography.. :p
as usual, our group photos. ^ des, yr gf won run away la, look at e front! haha.. jk jk
after tat actually wanted to take another gp photo at e LOVE there but after witnessing somebody fall off e top, we called e thing off. its like we witnessed e whole thing in slow mo lo, e guy fell off from e top of e structure, bounced n flipped over the ledge b4 landing head first on the ground. at first tot he unconscious but he got up immediately. mus be really painful, hopefully hes alright by now..
so after tat we gossipped n chatted outside e mrt station b4 goin our separate ways. e next time we meet will be in may after exams. wat a long way..
- Mood: content
你一起来，
必定会发简讯，
确保我已起床，
给我问声早，
你是我的闹钟。
傍晚，
功课多但没心作，
你总是不厌其烦地劝我做，
鼓励我，
就算第二天得早起，
你还是回赔我熬夜，
定时发简讯娱乐我，
你是我的陪读。
周末，
有报告要写，
你总是那位牺牲者，
独自在我家看电视，
为的是让我见你一面，做完功课，隔天陪母亲逛街，
你是我的知己。
电话里，
我有一天说不完的不如意，
两次考车不及格的经历，
洒不完的泪，
但你总是好像在听新事似的，
仔细，默默聆听，
你是我的倾诉对象。
出门，
你总是让我先，
进电梯，下车，
总是会扶我搭我最怕的电动扶梯，
你是我的绅士。
虽然，
你不至于是我的一切，
但若没了你，
我却不完整。
情人节快乐。
羞.. :)
- Mood:
thoughtful
me n jul went to fetch them from e mrt station. cant stand jem's fingernails. apparently his sister wanted to turn his fingers into a piano so coloured one hand black and e other white. my god.. haha!
my mum cookd a huge pot of porridge n was so worried tat we all cant finish. but with 3 guys around, its basically an easy task. haha! mum also fried a lot of finger food then all e while we were munchin at it. after tat, as usual when guests come my house, my mum will take out all e alcohol drinks, we tasted choya, martell and some red wine. we started with red wine n moved on to e others. i dunno we were addicted or wat but in e end we found tat martell was best tastin but it also had a high lvl of alcohol, almost equal to vodka. i din dare try too much cos i was fallin sick but according to the facial expressions of jem n wk, martell was like quite strong. haha!
wk and his glass of alcohol..
jem n wk playin with rubik's cube. they are quite expert so call them to solve mine since my bro always mess it up. haha!
after tat we took photos. seems like its a custom now. whenever we meet, we will take gp photo. so i set up my tripod n shoo my mum n bro to e rm to tat we can act cute. haha! so these are e photos.. a bit dark cos roll down e blinds since there was a glaring light but forgot to switch on e lights. haha
e guys v guo fen. put all those stuff on our heads.. haha..
so we had our revenge.. but tat stupid jul held on to my other hand :s
1, 2, 3, 4, hi 5! hahaha.. really cant stand jem fingernails.. jul look so cute! haha..
we were actually tryin to look like rats. i warned them not to look too gd but nv heed my advice. so im e only one lookin ugly. sobs..
actin cool. jem like v distraught. li ting bully u ah? haha..
too bad des missed e fun..
then we played mahjiong. i was on a winning streak man. was e only one to win. but seems like e amt don tally. i won like $4 plus then they each lost ony bout $1. but nvm, im happy enough tat i don even hav take out my wallet in e first place. mum lent me $2.50 n i got to keep e profits. haha! call me e mj queen! muah haha.. :p
my flickin my shoulders cos my bro tap them when im gamblin! grr..
then we lou hei since new yr ma. mind u, i whole morn nv do my tut cos i was busy shredding carrots for this. haha.. huat ah!! <-- wk shouted this v loudly. haha
after tat we travelled to des house to bai nian. had buffet then des intro us to his gf. actually we all noe le lo, jus tat he always duo duo shan shan. wats there to hide? haha. wk mus jia you le k? i help u find one. smallest ka kia v nice de.. haha.
then take our proper dao huey photo. caption: dao huey at des house, cny 08
i luv this pic n i hope dao huey will last forever to take such a pic every cny. it feels so gd to noe tat after all e hardwk n tirin routines, there will always be such friends for u to think of and rely on. i miss u all lots..
after tat we watch uncut she jie in des parents rm. we simply skipped e "unimportant" parts. all e time i was trying to look out for e dan dans but in e end also cant find lo. after tat then i noe it appeared for only 0.2s, according to my bro. haha. e show basically nth lo. all e positions n actions only. wk was like sayin someone tried one of e positions n sprained e back. hahaha! so ridiculous man. anw, while we were watchin, some other youngsters joined us at e door. haha. we finished e whole show in bout half h i think.
after tat i fell sick like almost instantly. e actress shi shen i shi sheng. haha! cos i almost fallin sick le then still ate my fav bo bo cha cha at e buffet. haha. so des made me some pi pa gao drink. mus really thank this da shao ye. i feel so honoured. haha. jk la.. thanks anw. so no choice hav to go home lo. tho we like nao from noon till nite, time seems to pass v fast.
time passes fast when yr havin fun, really..
1 went for my drivin lesson today. dunno shd hav went or not. if i nv go, ill be full of confidence rite now cos i did really well last lesson, then ill take e test with all my mistakes n fail it again. i went n i feel like shit now.
2 my mum offered to bring me to e temple to pray this sun. again i dunno whether i shd go. if i go n pray, n i fail, i cannot blame e god. if i nv go n i fail, i blame e god n regret i nv go n pray.
3 and then i dunno whether i wanna attend e remainin revision lessons. if i go n fail, ill be wastin money by goin for so many revision lessons. but if i don go n i fail, ill regret tat i take too little lessons n may hav passed if i went.
4 moreover, if i fail, i dunno whether i shd continue or not. if i continue, ill be wastin bloody money again. if i don, ill get so jealous when all my friends pass n get to drive.
then if i continue, shd i convert to auto? if i don, im still stuck with e gear n when i fail, i will regret tat i nv convert. but if i convert, its like givin up n ill think tat e reason i fail is not cos of e gear.
then if i convert to auto n fail again? pls repeat steps 1 to 4.
im stucked in a vicious cycle n im sick of it. y cant i be relaxed n happy go lucky bout it? im not like others. i shd not hav started drivin in e first place.
n then i got a call from a ah tiong jus now. tell me go visit jb for their roadshow. i was so pissed off i really wanna scream but lucky for e person the call got cut off.
BUT THEN E CALL CAME AGAIN. i had e urge to tell her tat im really pissed off n if she does not wan to be my chu qi tong she had better cancel my no. from her list. but i din. probably in e first place i don dare to.
someone save me. im tryin to kill myself with msg by drinkin all e soup of my maggie mee now. i don wanna collect another piece of e drivin checklist on mon. i don wanna enter tat sch anymore.
- Mood:
depressed
went on a shoppin spree yesterday. i only go on shoppin sprees when my mum is around. partly cos she pays most or actually all of e stuff. haha. :p but then again its cos she will encourage me to buy stuff wat. n she noes how to bargain. for example, saw i pretty nike bag tat i vision wld be my new sch bag for e yr then was thinkin wanna buy or not cos it costs $90.95. tats a astronomical amt to me. but then eventually my mum encouraged, persuaded and perhaps more of nagged at me to buy it then i made up my mind. ok, so as usual i hav e 'last piece' ming4. im foreva seein things tat are e last n final piece. truly reflects my personality man, always one step slower than e others. haha. so my mum told e person to giv a discount. i was shocked n uttertly disgusted. i tot all these branded stuff all hav fixed prices wat. plus is at shoppin centre. so diu lian. to my surprise e boss cut 10% for me cos last piece le so sui bian a bit. saved me $9. moral of the story is: if u wan cheap stuff n safe money, nian pi mus be hou. or u can ask my mum for help. haha.
so this is a list of wat i bought yesterday:
1. nike bag
2. a pair of high heels
3. a sleeveless blouse
4. a pair of black skinny jeans
5. another blouse (2 piece)
6. 5 soft files --> christmas presents
anw, i actually saw another nice dress at coax n wanted to buy de but i v guilty so don dare tell my mum. but then again cos this month is my bday, i hav 20% discount so maybe i go buy it today. then at nite realise sat got class gatherin so haven buy dao huey de christmas present n li ting's belated bday present. ah.. i think im encouraging growth of the economy of singapore. my contribution is great. haha.
- Mood:
hyper
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